Written on 11/14:
It’s official. I cannot concentrate on work. I am in the thick of the infamous “two week wait.” I am super hopeful and pessimistic all at the same time. I will let you in on a secret, Reader. I got a very faint, but definitely there positive this morning. I’m so sad that I can’t let myself be excited. Part of me is excited, but most of me is worried it will turn out to be yet another chemical pregnancy.
I would like to start celebrating now. If I don’t, when is the time? The 1st beta? The second? The first ultrasound? Week 10? The end of the first trimester? Birth? Age 18? Something can always go wrong, but I still want to celebrate each landmark without worrying if the next one will happen. That is easier said than done.